school:
So, I got another C on my history test. I think that teacher really expects too much of us. To rememer ANYthing from 120+ pages of text AND lecture? That's a feat in and of itself. To actually writing anything down with no notes on a 2-pages-each 3-question essay test? Rediculous. Don't get me wrong. I love history. Just not American political history (which is what all of it is - political). And sorry, but if I don't find it interesting, I'm not going to put in as much effort as you want. So

home:
So Nick is being a jerk lately. I mean, he's normally a nice guy, but it's like someone shoved a big stick up his ass and lit it on fire. Like MAJOR pms pissy. And he either says/does something mean and never appologizes, or just vanishes suddenly for no reason. He's being increasingly mean to Conn (not all the time, he plays with him sometimes), like yelling at him and jerking him around for crying or not listening. Conn does need to learn to mind, but he's only 1, and Nick's methods are a little too extreme for my taste. But I wish his pissy attitude would just dry up already. I'm really fucking sick of it.

It might be because he's been sick for over a week, but so have I, and I'm not being a mindless asshole. So I don't know. But that needed to be said.

He also hates the fact that I'm bi. He said I should just stop, because he thinks it's a fucking choice. I've never done anything with a girl other than make out, because they were only ever using me to get attention from boys (but I digress). I told him that I can't just stop liking girls, but it's not like I'm going to leave him for one. He just stopped talking and remained pissy. He sulks alot when he's pissed at me, and he never admits to me when he IS pissed, even though I can tell. Who knows... if he keeps his shit up, I don't think I can deal with him much longer...


art
So I've really been in the mood to draw lately, with very little time to actually doing anything about it. I was trying to create a mermaid character (possibly as a companion to my D&D werewolf?), but it kind of failed miserably. Nick told me it looked fine, but he has no taste when it comes to art. I hate how it came out, so I need to try again.

Any art you guys would like to see? Even though I want to draw, I'm often lacking inspiration. Nick just wants me to draw him, and he's not really all that fun to draw (which is another thing that pisses him off)... so anything you guys would like to see, I'll try to work on. :3

other shit:
so I don't know what I'm gonna do. Chan (the baby's dad) fucked up with the DFS system and somehow got all my benefits shut off (which is what I'm living on while in school), so I've had to deal with that. None of my applications for jobs are being responded to. My roommate seems to think he doesn't have to contribute anymore, and to add to that, has let his sister and her boyfreind sort of just move in. None of them are paying and I don't know how my bills are getting paid next month. And my rental company will not hesitate to kick me and conn to the curb. So I'm super stressed. My hair is falling out, I'm stressed over school and home, and Nick won't let me have an outlet (like a club or even the library by myself) because he's determined that I'm going to cheat on him like all his exes. I'm really sick of defening myself about that. I'm not a cheater. But he won't fucking listen. I'm getting tired of how he's been treating me and the baby. It sucks that right now he's my only source of income (by getting money from his dad)... There's all kinds of other shit, but that's all that comes to mind, atm.....

So, I'm feeling shitty.