Yesh, I have a job now! I worked for pretty much all last week. I had the weekend off, but it was packed. I went and visited Sarah (would have been Jess, too, but she was working ) and returned/borrowed Naruto. I will see them again Thursday. Then Sunday was my family xmas party, and I've been at my mom's house since then. The library has been closed for winter break, so I haven't been able to get in and use the scanner . But school starts Monday, so I'll try to post some stuff then. I'm not sure I'll have a lot of time to do much art for the next couple months, what with school, homework, work, and taking care of Conn, but I'll try. I'll make time for 's 2010 Sketchbook exchange ( [link] ), of course, but I will be busy, for sure. I got my clay Tracy painted, and the pin up picture colored ( )... I don't remember what else I was working on... But I will get pics up, and anything I've got done scanned in.... I took pics of my crochet projects... Old crap one + the good one (which is for my mom). Ok, so that's the plan atm.


I want to learn how to crochet a hat for myself...

Hey all! Well, I thought I'd update since I'm at the library. :3

I'll try to get some new art done and posted, since it's winter break. I'm waiting to hear back about a job, so I may not get too much done, but I will try to get something in! I've got a sext pin up of Tracy to color, so I'll post that when it's done. I also made her out of clay!! **OMG NO! ** It was kind of a fail, but not too bad considering I don't really work with clay at all... I kept over working the peices and they got too mushy... bleh... but after I paint that I'll get pics up :3. I'll also try to get a picture in of the first thing I crocheted!! I'm sort of stopping where I am on it because the yarn is really stiff... I bought some softer stuff to work with next. :3 Anyhoo, all that and some new drawings to come soon. Yay!!

I also joined 's 2010 Sketchbook Exchange, so I have a reference pic of Tracy in it to be used by all. May scan it in, too, before I send it, just because I've never done a reference pic of her before. She's not naked, like my Mage and Steve references (have I ever posted those?), but in undies... though now I might just have to do a naked one lol

ok, anyhoo... blah. I have to go home and feed Conn now. Happy Holidays!

Ok, I found this in 's journal (I think she stole it from someone else, but meh) so I thought I's fill it out, too. Whee~~!

Xmas Wish List Thingy
THE BASICS: write a Christmas/Holiday wish list. It can be any 10 wishes you'd like to have granted, no matter what they are. Possible or seemingly impossible. People look and grant the wishes if they can. It's not about "OMFG PRESENTS", it's about making someone else's holiday a little brighter by giving.

STEP ONE
** Make a post in your journal. The post should contain your list of 10 holiday wishes. The wishes can be anything at all, from simple and fun ("I'd love a Snape/Hermione icon that's just for me") to medium ("I wish for _____ on DVD") to really big ("All I want for Christmas is a new car/computer/house/TV.") The important thing is, make sure these wishes are things you really, truly want.
** If you wish for real possible things, make sure you include some sort of contact info in your post, whether it's your address or just your email address where Santa (or one of his elves) could get in touch with you. In this case, you can always just note someone on dA for the sake of privacy.
** Make sure you post some version of these guidelines in your journal, so that others can join in and participate to spread the holiday joy!

STEP TWO
** Surf this forum ([link] ) and browse the lists. Here's the important part:
** If you see a wish you can grant, and it's in your heart to do so, make someone's wish come true. Sometimes someone's trash is another's treasure, and if you have a leather jacket you don't want or a gift certificate you won't use--or even know where you could get someone's dream purebred Basset Hound for free--do it.
** You needn't spend money on these wishes unless you want to. The point isn't to put people out, it's to provide everyone a chance to be someone else's holiday elf--to spread the joy. Gifts can be made anonymously or not--it's your call.

There are no rules with this project, no guarantees, and no strings attached. Just...wish, and it might come true. Give, and you might receive. And you'll have the joy of knowing you made someone's holiday special.

It's the season for fellow deviants to come together and share some love, and it truly doesn't take much work at all. Come on and make your own wishlist and post it in the forum ([link]) and see what happens-- you never know what might be granted.


My Wishlist

1- I wish I could pay my rent/bills on my own this month. I recently lost my government assitance and since I haven't found a job, I'm basically fucked. I really don't want to be kicked out... anything helps, really, but I'm not going to beg. (If you want to help in this reguard, note me and I'll give you details)

2- I want Conn to get presents this year, but I can't afford any. He likes Spiderman, dinos, trucks/cars, tools, and cows. Anything you would like to get for him, I know he'll appreciate! If I receive anything, I will take a pic of him playing with it and post it here. :3 (he's 1 year old, btw)

3- I would like some boots. I had some cool boots last year but lost them in the mud in a creek bed while arrowhead hunting... it's getting really cold here and I only haave my tennis shoes. These boots were really cheap, so non-expensive boots are cool. (again, note me for details if you want to help here)

4- A mario game for my Wii. I got a Wii last month (while I still had a little cash - it was used and cheap) and I only have 1 game for it. If anyone has played their Mario game to death and wish to be rid of it, I'll take it off your hands! Seriously, I will play used games. Any Wii game works for me really (already have Twilight Princess), but I really want a mario one. :3

5- A knit hat. I only have ball caps, and, again, it's getting cold here. I could use some gloves/mittens too. Uhg, I hate being poor... I just want to keep warm while I go to school/ search for work. (and purple is my favorite color!)

6- Gift art. I love gift art. :3 I never get any, so I would love some if you have the time. You can pick anyone I draw (or me), so long as it isn't my past boyfreinds ( ). Please and thank you!

7- A tattoo in honor of my son. I'm trying to save up for it, but it's hard when I don't even have enough for rent. I actually want to get 2, but the one I'm talking about is going to be a small turtle on my ankle (I call Conn my little turtle :3). It'd probably be $100 max, since it'd be small... I know, expensive but it's something I've wanted for a while now...

8- Anime dvd's. And manga. I can't get enough!! If you have some you're sick of, I'll take it! (note me about my faves or what you have if you would like to do this :3)

9- A job. Seriously. if any of you are from Warrensburg and get put in a good word for me where you work, it would be MOST APPRECIATED!!!

10- Size 9 women's pants. My ass has grown too fat from eating while studying and I don't fit in any of my jeans. I only had 5 pairs any way, so I need some pants! Cheap ones work, I swear! (note me if you want to help! )


Thanks to anyone in advance for helping me out this holiday season. I asked my mom for the kitchen utensils that I'm short, and my dad just paid alot to fix my car, so I'm pretty stuck where I am. I will do gift art back to anyone that decides to help me out. Anything you want that's within my range of completion. I will even try crocheting and using clay! Thank you!

Well, I may be going through some crap right now, but at least it's not as bad as it could be, right? I'll try to remain optimistic for the time being (ha ha, you can't be optimistic, Tracy! You're a pessimist! XD)

Anyhoo, I'm attempting to learn how to knit and crochet. The crocheting seems to come to me easier, so that's what I'm working on first (making myself a scarf! ). Once I figure out the knitting, I'll do other stuffs. :3 Maybe once I get the hang of the two I'll start posting my products here. We'll see.

Trying to get new arts done, but we're at the week before finals AND i'm looking for work, so it might be awhile. I'll still post when I can, of course. :3

Well, I'm off to class to go try to cram in as much knowledge as possible so I don't fail my final!

school:
So, I got another C on my history test. I think that teacher really expects too much of us. To rememer ANYthing from 120+ pages of text AND lecture? That's a feat in and of itself. To actually writing anything down with no notes on a 2-pages-each 3-question essay test? Rediculous. Don't get me wrong. I love history. Just not American political history (which is what all of it is - political). And sorry, but if I don't find it interesting, I'm not going to put in as much effort as you want. So

home:
So Nick is being a jerk lately. I mean, he's normally a nice guy, but it's like someone shoved a big stick up his ass and lit it on fire. Like MAJOR pms pissy. And he either says/does something mean and never appologizes, or just vanishes suddenly for no reason. He's being increasingly mean to Conn (not all the time, he plays with him sometimes), like yelling at him and jerking him around for crying or not listening. Conn does need to learn to mind, but he's only 1, and Nick's methods are a little too extreme for my taste. But I wish his pissy attitude would just dry up already. I'm really fucking sick of it.

It might be because he's been sick for over a week, but so have I, and I'm not being a mindless asshole. So I don't know. But that needed to be said.

He also hates the fact that I'm bi. He said I should just stop, because he thinks it's a fucking choice. I've never done anything with a girl other than make out, because they were only ever using me to get attention from boys (but I digress). I told him that I can't just stop liking girls, but it's not like I'm going to leave him for one. He just stopped talking and remained pissy. He sulks alot when he's pissed at me, and he never admits to me when he IS pissed, even though I can tell. Who knows... if he keeps his shit up, I don't think I can deal with him much longer...


art
So I've really been in the mood to draw lately, with very little time to actually doing anything about it. I was trying to create a mermaid character (possibly as a companion to my D&D werewolf?), but it kind of failed miserably. Nick told me it looked fine, but he has no taste when it comes to art. I hate how it came out, so I need to try again.

Any art you guys would like to see? Even though I want to draw, I'm often lacking inspiration. Nick just wants me to draw him, and he's not really all that fun to draw (which is another thing that pisses him off)... so anything you guys would like to see, I'll try to work on. :3

other shit:
so I don't know what I'm gonna do. Chan (the baby's dad) fucked up with the DFS system and somehow got all my benefits shut off (which is what I'm living on while in school), so I've had to deal with that. None of my applications for jobs are being responded to. My roommate seems to think he doesn't have to contribute anymore, and to add to that, has let his sister and her boyfreind sort of just move in. None of them are paying and I don't know how my bills are getting paid next month. And my rental company will not hesitate to kick me and conn to the curb. So I'm super stressed. My hair is falling out, I'm stressed over school and home, and Nick won't let me have an outlet (like a club or even the library by myself) because he's determined that I'm going to cheat on him like all his exes. I'm really sick of defening myself about that. I'm not a cheater. But he won't fucking listen. I'm getting tired of how he's been treating me and the baby. It sucks that right now he's my only source of income (by getting money from his dad)... There's all kinds of other shit, but that's all that comes to mind, atm.....

So, I'm feeling shitty.